The loneliness part really sucks. I've got 4 boys happy in the backyard and I'm making dinner and there's supposed to be someone else here to share it with. To laugh and talk and smile with while we watch them and cook dinner and talk about life. And the stupid idiot, he left at the hardest time. Research shows that having kids under age three is the most stressful time. He couldn't hack it and left before we could get to easier times.